"The Unforgiven"

How could he know this new dawn's light

Would change his life forever?

Set sail to sea but pulled off course

By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain

With his careless dreaming?

Been afraid

Always afraid

Of the things he's feeling

He could just be gone

He would just sail on

How can I be lost?

If I've got nowhere to go?

Searched the seas of gold

How come it's got so cold?

How can I be lost

In remembrance I relive

How can I blame you

When it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on inside a fog

It's thick and suffocating

This seeking life outside its hell

Inside intoxicating

He's run aground

Like his life

Water's much too shallow

Slipping fast

Down with the ship

Fading in the shadows now

They've gone away 

A castaway

Forgive me

Forgive me not

Forgive me

Forgive me, why can't I forgive me?

Set sail to sea but pulled off course

By the light of golden treasure

How could he know this new dawn's light

Would change his life forever

How can I be lost

If I've got nowhere to go?

Search for seas of gold

How come it's got so cold?

How can I be lost

In remembrance I relive

So how can I blame you

When it's me I can't forgive?

Blogging is NOT my forte !

Guess I've ignored this blog for a long time. its not like i never have the time to write i just don't have the right material or idea or story or some sort, so i'm keeping it real,It's frightfully chilly today and I'm staying warm inside. Was feeling slightly self-indulgent and messed around to get the internet back And here it is. Now I am not sure what it was I felt I needed to say so badly..Now, let's be honest,This blog is just something I've decided to keep as a record of self existence in the internet age or just a stress relief. I've realized that writing helps me clear my head which kind of surprised me because I was never too keen on writing. I had tried keeping a diary before, but it always ended up being such a hassle because I was essentially forcing myself to search for some tidbit of interesting information that spawned from my meager existence in this random world. but an obligation. no hold on, the real reason why I've even bothered to start a blog is because I just want to have some place where I can jot down my thoughts whenever things get too jumbled up to hold onto in my mind. I suppose that's all I have to say in this this post. And, as the title says, I have no f@#$%ng idea what I'm doing, Blogging is NOT my forte. I usually stick to the saved Word documents. But, why not? Let's give this a try and continue to update my blog from time to time.

Peace Out

It's not who I am

Five years ago... I thought I knew who I was, but now I don’t. I'm learning all over again, from scratch. I thought I knew where my life was heading, but now I know there are always unexpected twists in life. Whether good or bad we can only take them as they come. I am split into two; the guy before I got sick and who I am now. Split into three; the guy before the accidents, and now. It's taken a while, but I’m finally starting to like who I am now better. Music and photography is the way I breathe, the way I see the world there is no words,I like to capture moments.but I also happen to be chronically ill and live in kinda pain every day. While it is a big, controlling part of my life, it is not who I am - though it has changed me for the better. It is just one piece of the puzzle, it's not who I am.

Dear World,

You are very random. But thank you for allowing me to realize that we can also choose to be the same, Not a day goes by without a smile saying thanks for sharing a colorful world with colorful people, Even if sometimes, it’s best enjoyed in black and white